Isn't actually what I'm listening to...I think I'll go rectify that right now!
Okay, now I'm listening to it. Welcome to the strange by Murderdolls. Excellent song.
Okay, so today was weird. I've been pretty hyper all day until my mum came in and now I'm... I don't know. Not exactly in a bad mood, just...pensive?
It's like her negative reaction to work just kind of washed over me.
She's drinking again. Not sure what to do about it.
Managed to sort a big chunk of Dead House last night...not really getting anywhere with it tonight though which is annoying.
Halloween is drawing near but it's christmas I'm thinking about right now. Just watched 'A very supernatural christmas', Episode 8 of Season 3 of Supernatural.
I adore this episode because it's really tearing up christmas, like right at the beginning this kids grandad dresses up as santa for him and then gets ripped up the chimney and killed. Sam and Dean get tortured, and it's just like...not full of christmas cheer.
But then at the end, Dean and Sam finally get to celebrate christmas, even though it's not all tonnes of decorations and hundreds of presents. They're not even in their home, they don't HAVE a home. It's a motel room that Sam dressed up, and if you look carefully, there's car freshener trees on the christmas tree :P
Anyways, so Dean comes in and they swap presents. Dean got Sam 'skin mags'...from the look I'm guessing that's a porn thing or something... and shaving cream and Sam got Dean a chocolate bar and this fuel stuff for the Impala.
And then they drank eggnogg and watched football.
The really sweet thing is that Sam was about to say something really upsetting and serious, but Dean just looked so happy that he stopped himself from saying anything.
It just really hammers it home that christmas isn't about presents. It's not about decorations. Hell, it isn't even about Jesus's birthday since he was actually born probably in March and christmas is just to cover up the winter solstice because of the whole christian vs pagan bit.
What christmas is really about, as corny and stupid as it sounds, is about family and friends. End of.
I've always loved christmas. Even when things were at their worst, christmas was still awesome.
People tend to forget that christmas isn't a happy time for everyone and it makes me feel guilty and sad that I'm looking forward to christmas and I love it but other people are drowning in despair and slitting their wrists or throwing themselvse off rooves, or freezing to death on the streets cos they don't have a home.
But for me, christmas was always the one time of year that my family actually pulled together and acted like a family.
Our christmas is gonna be like supernatural this year cos of Kay's wedding coming up. But that doesn't matter. Actually, I prefer it this way.
People get too wrapped up in the materialism of christmas but when you don't have the money for that...it's even better.
It really is the thought that counts :)
God. Now all I can think about is all the people that are still gonna be suffering on Christmas day :(
And there's fuck all I can do about any of it.
You know what? I don't care what it takes, one day I'm gonna save the world from all that shit!
I feel like if I don't save them, I'm just as bad as whatever put them in a bad situation in the first place.
I don't wanna be evil and the only way I can think of is saving people.
But this isn't Supernatural, y'know?
I can't go running around the world saving people from demons or whatever.
I actually think that would be easier than trying to save them from the real evil in the world.
Cos with the real evil...I don't have the first fucking clue of where to start?
That's another reason I wanna move to America.
Whether the English (who in my opinion are pretty stuck up when it comes to world status as it were) like it or not...America is pretty much the head country of the world.
Whatever happens, it's gonna start with America.
It's so easy for people to blame the American's for everything. If you looked at each country individually you could find any number of reasons to hate them.
America's just more upfront about things so people choose them to blame. America tries to fix everything, and try to help everyone, so if that goes wrong, it's automatically, 'Oh those fucking American's'.
Whereas you can say pretty much the same about England but they turn up their nose and act all high and mighty.
The English I mean.
I don't know, I'm probably a traitor to my country but I just really can't stand it here. To me, this country is on a fucking soapbox made of hypocritical and contradictive bullshit that they stand on so they can look down at the rest of the world.
And I'm pretty sure that most countries are like that.
I think that everyone just really needs to get over themselves and stop thinking in such segmented ways. Like when countries do something it's like, which country can do best, who's doing more? Yadda, yadda, yadda.
If they all stopped being in competition with each other and stopped trying to be the best, more would get done.
I mean, I'm all for patriotic pride and all that, I just think it needs to be more in moderation.
I have no idea how long this post is, I've kind of rambled on again.
Oh well.
Maybe one day someone will actually give a damn.
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