Hesitate

Is what I'm listening to...from Stone Sour's new album Audio Secrecy. No. I don't have it. I've been reduced to listening to it on youtube because money sucks and I can't afford to get it yet.

I'm not even gonna bother trying to make some stupid lame ass excuse for this being a negative post because anyone who actually reads anything I write knows by now that when I'm stupid enough to say 'I'm going to be positive from now on' it's a humungous lie.

And I'm not gonna fucking apologize for it because who the fuck cares if I'm in a shitty mood, it happens.

I'm sick of trying to be something I'm not so you know what. Fuck it. This is my blog and yeah. Sometimes it will have shitty fucking negative posts that just whine on about how shit I'm feeling. I don't care what anyone thinks of me for it and to be honest I really don't fucking need to cos it's not like people are swarming to hear what I have to say.

I'm feeling stupidly overwhelmed by everything and I'm only in the second week of college. That's not a good omen.

Hopefully next week I'll get paid for my training and I'll be able to order Season three of Supernatural. That should cheer me up a bit.

"I wanted believe as I watched your world crumble in your hand
I wanted to believe as you raised a glass to your last stand
and I wanted to believe you would win the war in your head
that I did not understand."

Suicide Note by Johnette Napolitino

Hears to hoping tomorrow will be better and knowing it won't be.