Addition

So my mum's happy I got an A...my sister can't even manage a well done. She's doing my head in at the moment so screw her. She's so fucking self-absorbed. It's all about her.

I know I might seem self absorbed because everything I write on here is something to do with me but...it's a blog. As far as I know that's what you're supposed to do on a blog.

But she can't even manage to be happy for me for passing my GCSE.

I'm kinda sad though because I told Jensen I was waiting for my results for photography, cos he's really interested in photography too and he wished me good luck, but because he had to delete his page, I can't tell him I got an A :(

And Jared said if I was worried I should take acting classes, and I can't tell him that college are doing an extra called 'College Production' where you can choose to act...

It just makes me sad that they were really down to earth regular guys that you could talk to and it was so nice to talk to them...and now I can't anymore. I know that a lot of people are like oh they're actors and they're hot and yadda, yadda, yadda, but they're such nice people behind all that and they really put you at ease so you feel like you've made a couple of good friends...so I feel like I've lost two good friends.

But...I'm determined that somehow, one way or the other, I'm going to work with them. Especially since Jensen said he wanted to do more directing as well.

It's kind of just inspired me to write a film about maybe two friends like, pen pals or something, that travel a long way to find each other and the things they have to get past and all that...maybe...I dunno. Y'know, one of them feel good films.

I've been able to get down main ideas for Dead House but for some reason I just can't actually write the script. I just go blank every time I try.

But I'm sure it'll come to me eventually. Maybe when I just get back in the routine for college and all that, I'll get going.

And I really think having a proper writing area in my room when it's all sorted will help as well.

Got my interview at college tomorrow. Well it's not really an interview, it's more actual enrollment. Like, getting my student ID and everything.

I'm actually looking quite forward to this year, actually, I'm looking forward to pretty much everything because like I've said previously, I'm in a stupidly healthy frame of mind.

Like, I dunno, it's like things that would have torn me down a few months ago just...they still effect me but not enough to cause me to break anymore. I've managed to keep holding it together and I'm feeling better than I have in years, like...more positive.

So yeah. I'm feelin' pretty gooooooooood. Hope ya'll are feeling good too.

Later dudes.

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