Check

Kitchen, check
Washing, check
Job seekers, check

Did all that was on my list except the most important. I didn't get any work done, like...at all.

And me and Kay went to the leisure centre to check about Tae Kwon Do only to find that it was finished for the summer so we have to go next week to find out about it.

Apart from that it's been a super day. I was a bit miffed though, cos I had psyched myself up to go and give it a go and not chicken out and everything so then I was really restless and wanting to do something physical and not having anything to do...which is something I've been feeling a lot recently.

The most annoying thing is that I've been having a tonne of ideas and not being able to do them. It's like, it's gonna be at least six years before I even finish education let alone start my career, but I have ideas NOW!

It's so fucking frustrating man, but I guess all I can do is be patient and take every oppertunity that comes my way.

Mum's borrowing some money of my grandad so we'll be able to sort my room out, and she says we might be able to get my tattoo done early so when I'm in town on Friday for my job seekers interview, I'm going to Skin Grafiti, which is a tattoo shop, to ask how much my tat design would cost.

My other sis Giz gave me a lecture the other day because it involves someone's name and she was all, never get someones name tattooed because oppinions and likes etc change but you'll have to wear it for the rest of your life.

Usually I agree with that and under normal circumstances I wouldn't get a name tattooed but it's not about the name. It's a reminder about a part of my life that the person happened to play a part in, and I'm getting this tattoo to remind me that when I talked to this person, something clicked inside of me and I made the conscious decision that I wasn't going to just give up.

So any time I feel like giving up and throwing in the towel, I can look down and see this tattoo and think, that's why I'm here. That's why I'm not giving up, I made that choice and I'm not gonna back out now!

I really hope they'll agree to do it where I want. Some people don't tattoo on wrists. Plus I have scars on my arms so we'll have to do it in a place where there aren't any scars cos a lot of people won't tattoo over scars either.

But I'll find a place to get it done.

So that's it, I'll probably post on Friday depending on how it goes at the job centre.

Chow.